Saturday, October 16, 2010

I lost my motivation

This post is a bit of a rant, vent of frustration, something I have to get off my chest. I've got some issues with people, professors, fellow students...etc, etc, basically everyone and that includes myself. First, this fall has been stressful to say the least. I've been pulled every direction from everywhere and can't seem to say no to anyone. Well, I should clarify: I'm starting to say no to people and it feels very liberating!
I've got a hefty school schedule this fall, although it's *only* 9 credits the classes are not easy: Chemistry, Art History and Computer Graphics II. I just feel like the amount of stuff to know and remember is unrealistic. I've had 2 tests already in chem, and will be taking my 2nd test in AH next week. It's probably because I'm getting old, but I don't care, it's an amazing amount of stuff to know.
Moving on...I've been asked to take pictures for our church directory this fall, a very fulfilling job that I am glad I was asked to do. What a wonderful thing it is to be able to combine a hobby/passion with giving and serving! We'll be wrapping that project up hopefully soon.
Along with church pictures people have been finding out that I like to take pictures and I've been asked to take 2 seniors this fall and with a family sometime soon. An interesting direction that may be part of my future, but who knows.
So with all of the extra stuff, along with so much more that I haven't mentioned and won't, plus school, I'm feeling a little burdened, stressed, maxed out. In addition to that I've lost motivation for the things that are important like homework, housework, meals, and most importantly family. I need a kick in the pants to get excited about school again. I think that is the problem. If I just get excited again that would make everything else easier. Without the motivation I just want to veg out and do the least amount of stuff to get by.
The end is near though. I have 2 more semesters left and then I will be done! I'll graduate next December with 3 degrees! So maybe I just need to remember that it won't be long and the original reason why I'm going back to school; to better myself and most importantly: my family.